Life is Life (Poem)

Life is Life 

Danielle Myre (9.27.2012)

He weeps. 

She fears. 

They suffer. 

I smile. 

So much sorrow, 

And just as much happiness; 

A day that falls apart, 

And a day that is the best ever. 

We all feel different things;

And just because they suffer,

Does that mean we can’t smile? 

Why is there both so much sadness and happiness in one day? 

I ache for their pain, 

You wish for their happiness. 

They ache for freedom, 

And sometimes wish for more pain. 

But today I weep. 

Today you fear. 

We suffer. 

And they smile. 

Their sorrow turns around,

Happiness becomes their day.

Our smiles dissipate,

And pain settles in deep. 

Every day changes, 

And everyone grows from their pain. 

But those that are happy may meet a horrible day. 

Every day is different.  

A bad day can become a good day.

And a good day can switch to the worst day. 

There is no telling what day yours will become;

Because life is life and it’s always changing. 

I have been writing since about 9 am this morning and I'm still going at it. With my breaks, it's probably 3 hours that I have not written since I started. I wonder if I'm going to break my record tonight? I'll find out when I look in my writers journal. :)  My fingers won't stop moving even though they ache and the words keep piling up. I hope I can keep up. Today was miserable at first and then it got bearable then I started to smile and now I'm moving into the end of today and it has turned out to be one of my most constructive days. Still wish I had my number one writing tool but what can a girl do? Just have to deal with it.  

Today is turning out better than I had expected. When I first woke up and dealt with the death of my computer I thought the world was going to end.. well not the world but I was pretty freaked out. But as the day goes on I feel fine. My moms old computer that is slow and needed lots of love is actually working pretty well now. I should have worked on it before with the intention of forcing it to be better. It's still not the same as mine but it will do until I can get a new one.. it has to do because I have no choice at all. But for right now I'm good and feel like smiling. :)  

Well, I knew it was inevitable but it finally happened.. For the last 7 months or so my computer has slowly been dying and it finally took that final step. My LCD blacklight finally gave out and now I'm totally screwed. I'm lucky enough to see a TINY bit with a flash light so if I can get a external hard drive I can HOPEFULLY switch all my files over. I've been careful to keep my back ups updated but not careful enough to save my last short story to my flash. Pretty stupid when I knew this would be happening sooner or later. I guess I was just hoping it would be until I could afford a new computer. But I was not that lucky so I'm spending my morning having a panic attack cause I don't know what to do. Yes, I know life happens and things like this are always going on but my life revolves around my computer because I work so hard every day to better my writing and now I've lost that. And another huge part of my life is music and all the music I spent my time and money buying is down the drain. Music inspires me to write, it calms me down so I don't go mad, it fills me up and gives me strenght and without it I feel panic sneaking up on me because it is how I deal with my issues. To most people, I could go out and fix it but my computer is to the point that it would cost to much to fix. I could also buy a new one but the thing is that I don't have any money.. I can't even afford a loaf of bread. I'm aspiring to be a writer and working every day to make that successful but at this second it does not pay a dime. That's kind of depressing but all writers start here. Currently I am using an old computer that is not mine (of course) to post this and vent so I don't know when I will be returing to my blog. To the few people who have viewed and read some of my postings.. don't forget about me and keep checking.
Terribly sorry to start the day out complaining about my issues but this is a way for me to calm down... even if it is only a little bit. I hope everyone has a better day than me! :P :)

Today turned out to be one of those days.. you know the days when you just don't feel like doing anything and can't seem to get your energy no matter what you do.. that was my day. I was thinking about writing all day today and had some pretty good ideas for a rewrite that I must do for my S.S. "Clover." But I didn't write at all and I know I'm going to end up regretting it so I'm going to quickly jot down the thoughts I had. I would be so furious at myself if I forgot after a night of sleep. I know myself to well and that is exactly what would happen. Now I am off to bed and hoping that tomorrow turns out better and I get something constructive done.    

Follow A Dream

Danielle Myre (9.22.2012)

I follow a dream, 

So passionate I scream, 

Loud and always there,

But will it make me tear? 

I never stop trying,

And sometimes I end up crying. 

But I still dream, 

No matter how weird it may seem. 

But how long until it ends?

Won't my dreams extend? 

I will keep growing, 

And my dreams will be flowing. 

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I woke up this morning feeling the desire to write poetry but as I read over it I feel as if I'm not as good as I used to be. When I was in high school I could write several poems a day and when I look over them now I feel that my emotions used flow much more smoothly. But that was then and this is now. Even if my I don't think my poetry writing is not as good as it used to be I know that my short story and novel writing is better. I enjoy writing poetry but I love writing stories much more.

Later, I think I'm going to add a few more of my newer poems and some of my favorite ones from high school and let you be the judge of them. I can't learn and grow without comments so I would appreciate it if you would share your opinion.  ^_^

I woke up feeling good about the day and now I feel beyond wonderful. My writing inspiration is at top speed today and it just got faster with the help of the best brunch sandwich I've ever made. Thank's go to Kaladi's Coffee Legend & Bistro for introducing me to  a turkey and cranberry sandwich. I mimicked their masterpiece and made it my own by adding different meats and cheese. Yep, it is so good that it has jumped up my inspiration and made it impossible not to talk about it.    

I started out the day enthusiastic and I'm ending it with several pages written for my short story about vampires. I think it was a pretty constructive day but I feel as if i could have done more and pushed myself harder to get more of that inspiration out. I just hope it is still with me when i wake up tomorrow.   :) 

I want to spend my life writing. I want everything I imagine and dream up to be on paper and I want everyone to see what I create. This is my life: I can save lives, destroy the bad guys and even be a bad guy, I can use magic and fly or I can be an explorer. I can be anything I want to be because I write. I've always wanted to do SO many things but realistically it is impossible to make all those marvelous desires a reality. But that is the best thing about writing! Even if it is not truly real I can make it feel real by writing everything down. Writing gets my blood pumping and my heart racing.. it is what I want to do for the rest of my life.  

Well, this is the start of my blogging life. Honestly, I'm not sure what to say at this second but I feel as if I have to. I need a start and I hope this helps me along the way.