How Do I Grasp It? (Poem)

How Do I Grasp It?

Danielle Myre (01/16/2013)

I press my hand to my heart and close my eyes and whisper; 

What's on my mind? How do I feel? 

My mind trembles and I shake my head. 

I ask again: What's on my mind? How do I feel? 

The answer evades but I feel it standing on the edge. 

One more time: What's on my mind? How do I feel? 

Pain surrounds and courage tries not to drown. 

Spinning until I'm sick and no stable ground to stand on, but I want what I desire. 

So now I ask: How do I grasp it? 

I reach forward and grab mist. My image flows past. 

I jump forward. I am lost in this vast night. 

I'm lost and I need to ask: How do I grasp it? 

Right in front of me. I see so clearly. But how do I grasp it? 

I extend my arm; the vision clouds. I step back; it's as clear as a bright day. 

My heart aches and I start to scream. But I know this won't help. 

I press my hand to my heart and close my eyes and whisper; How do I grasp it? 

Relief breathes into me and my eyes snap open. I step forward and embrace my dream. 

My final question: How do I grasp it? I don't because I already have.